Because apparently I have very loose convictions

There are a number of things I said I would never do. At the top of that list was joining Facebook. I considered, and still do really, it to be nothing more than a gigantic time sucker; study time, cleaning time, working time (heaven knows I'm fighting a continual uphill battle to get my "children" at job which shall not be named to avoid updating their statuses while on the clock), cooking time, mommy time, laundry time... you get the picture.

Apparently I have very loose convictions. Today, with little more than a second thought, I joined Facebook. Unabashed shame rushed over me immediately. What had I done? I'd said I would never do it. How much flak was I going to take (be it deserved or not) from the many people who I had mocked mercilessly for their Facebook addictions? What was I thinking?

Within minutes I was consumed with the world of Facebook. Everything happens so fast. What was going on? Status updates, comments, pictures, games.... there is so much to see and read and process at once. I am so overwhelmed. Is there any reason for me to ever leave my couch again? It is now possible for me to communicate effectively with the outside world simply through the computer. Whilst I am experiencing all of these things at once, it comes to me, I adore this. I do. I am ashamed to admit it, but I love it. People that I haven't spoken to in years are suddenly right there. I can have friends again, it's been so long since I've had friends. (Even if they are only internet friends, it's better than nothing right? Anyone want to be my friend?) All of those people that called me fat through my life, because of Facebook I now know karma is a beast (yes, I am fully aware that this is not nice and I am not proud of it, but then again I am not exactly known for being a "nice" person).

Facebook welcome to my life. I am so sorry that we did not meet sooner. Oh, is there anyone out there willing to come care for my child? I'm pretty sure the computer will be requiring the bulk of my time from here on out and I must prioritize.